Lunar Park

senangnya seminggu yang lalu karena jadi tim hore ke Banten,

senangnya seminggu yang lalu karena AKHIRNYA ngerasain jalan2 lagi,

senangnya seminggu yang lalu karena bisa liat salah satu peninggalan peradaban Islam yg keren pada masanya,

senangnya seminggu yang lalu karena bisa maen bebek2an di Tasik Ardi, hahahaha,

senangnya seminggu yang lalu karena bisa puas ngetawain Raup yg ga sengaja ngelucu berkali-kali, hahahahaha (jd inget lagi),

senangnya seminggu yang lalu karena ngeliat langit di jalan tol Serang yang bagus banget, ga ada tandingannya,

senangnya seminggu yang lalu karena bisa ketawa2, ngobrol2, nyela2, foto2 tanpa beban,

senangnya seminggu yang lalu karena masih punya temen2 yg seru!

senangnya seminggu yang lalu karena bisa bikin gue bahagia.

huhu…

sebenernya sedih nih, ga mau kelas IELTS nya berakhir, karena les IELTS adalah satu2nya kehidupan sosial gue, hehehehehe,

abis sedih nih, soalnya di Bandung gue ga punya temen, huhuhuhu…..satu2nya temen2 gue adalah anak2 IELTS, hahaha, menyedihkan, maaf ya teman2 IELTS ku, kalo gue sedikit berlebihan ;p

emang, setiap pilihan pasti pisau bermata dua. pindah ke Bandung, beginilah. diem di Jakarta, kere. tapi seenggaknya di bandung terjamin, walopun ga punya penghasilan sendiri, kan kerjaannya magang doang dimana-mana..

gw telah mengalami hal yg cukup memalukan tadi siang.

siang hari. di gudang bawah Museum SriBaduga.

critanya gw lagi deskripsi arca Dwarapala bersama seorang supervisor bernama ibu Ida. tiba2 masuklah ibu Nita (kepala seksi perlindungan) dengan 2 orang cowok tdk dikenal.

ibu Nita: bu Ida, iyeu aya barudak ti ITB, bade ningalian furnitur ceunah*.

ibu Ida: oh, mangga2*. anne, ditinggal bentar yah

dan gw menengok dong ke arah ibu Nita. dan oho! akhirnya ada anak muda jg, menyegarkan, yg satu keren pula, berkacamata dan poloshirt. ternyata mereka anak Desain Produk ITB, mau liat2 sm foto2 gt. saking kerennya, gw sampe senyum2 sendiri. begitu si cowok keren itu melewati gw sm ibu Ida, dan temennya tepat di belakang gw yg sedang duduk, mungkin krn gw jd senyum2 sendiri, deg2an, dan grogi, pas gw berdiri dari kursi (sbg catatan:kursinya kursi tua yg bnyk ornamen ga penting), mau pindah, tiba2 gw tersangkut apaan tau, dan gw keserimpet, dan padahal udh berusaha keras utk menyeimbangkan diri, dan akhirnya gw jatoh!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!!!!!!

dan si temennya si keren tadi hanya ngeliatin proses terjerembabnya gw dengan wajah bingung. mgkn dia mikir "kenapa keluar dr kursi aja dia bs jatuh?".

tp gw ga tau si keren tadi ngeh apa engga ya gw jatuh, soalnya gw ngebelakangin dia. dan abis itu gw lgsg berdiri dengan rasa malu yg berlipat jutaan kali, sok2 ga ada apa2. dan temennya si keren td melanjutkan perjalanannya ke dlm. heran ya, bknnya nolongin gt..huh…

tp gw malu banget. bodoh lg, kenapa jg bs grogi, si keren itu senyum ke gw aja engga. dasar bego..

the exact question came up from one of my friends in IELTS class as a question example (we’re learning a noun clause).

but hours later, it kind of hit me. cos yeah, i think i’m a boring person, i’m not capable of brighten the room or make everybody comfortable, i’m no fun.

dont you think so?

(please fill the answer in the appropriate space, e.g. the comment section) hehe

went to my uni today,,,and apparently i miss all about it.

i miss wake up in the morning. i miss running in the corridor because i was late for class. i miss watching everybody play soccer in the back of the building. i miss hangout in the canteen till night. i miss sitting in the middle of the corridor and being yelled by one of that English Dept. lecturer because of that. i miss making a lot of noises in the library. i miss standing in the line to get to know my grade. i miss sleeping in the middle of the lecture. i miss the feeling watching my crush walking to the class. i miss if someone breaking the glasses in the canteen. i miss all the prank. i miss being laughed at. i miss the trip to the site. i miss the sunshine there.  i miss cooking in the early morning. i miss the long walking. i miss the rushing in the crowded bus. i miss all the practical jokes everyone used to do. and i miss love on the set..i mean on the site. i miss everybody.

the place still look the same, the spirit still felt the same, its just the people that changed. i miss you.

you know, a guy who used to know, who i met on a bus, who go to DIS (he’s graduated now), who i thought we had sumthin, who likes to make a documentary film, who plan to go to Germany this year, yeah..that guy, he’ll go to Koln this thursday, and last night we talked and laughed in im, and then he called me and said that he missed me, well, i never trust him anyway, but i kind of happy though…hope i can see him next year in Europe, rite, like i really2 gonna go there, hope so…

I pack my case. I check my face.

I look a little bit older.

I look a little bit colder.

With one deep breath, and one big step, I move a little bit closer.

I move a little bit closer.

For reasons unknown.

caught my stride.

I flew and flied.

I know if destiny’s kind, I’ve got the rest of my mind.

But my heart, it don’t beat, it don’t beat the way it used to.

And my eyes, they don’t see you no more.

And my lips, they don’t kiss, they don’t kiss the way they used to, and my eyes don’t recognize you no more.

There was an open chair.

We sat down in the open chair.

I said if destiny’s kind, I’ve got the rest of my mind.

But my heart, it don’t beat, it don’t beat the way it used to.

And my eyes, they don’t see you no more.

And my lips, they don’t kiss, they don’t kiss the way they used to, and my eyes don’t recognize you at all.

I said my heart, it don’t beat, it don’t beat the way it used to and my eyes don’t recognize you no more.

And my lips, they don’t kiss, they don’t kiss the way they used to, and my eyes don’t recognize you no more.

For reasons unknown; for reasons unknown; for reasons unknown; for reasons unknown.

up there, one of my favorite song from the Killers. i like them, they’re quite awesome.

i’m getting confuse lately, by thinkin is this what i want? i’m sure i knew what i want when i first got into university, but now? it seem blurry.

i know i should pick chance over idealism, but it makes me wonderin more, is this what i want? am i really know what my heart desires exactly? it bothers me so i dont wanna think about it in the meantime. i dont know, why am i not happy if this is what i thought i want in the first place..did i just making myself more confusing? you bet i am. well, i know, i should grab a chance when there is one out there, hell, i’ll pick all the options.

i know. whether its Museology or Heritage Management or VOC History whatsoever, whether its in the Netherlands or Australia, i think i’ll try all of them.

ohyeah, btw, couple of days ago i saw the rain, literally. i mean, you know, if its rain you only hear the sound or feel the wet or sometimes see a glimpse of it but not really SEE it..so that day the rain was coming down but not too heavily while the sun kept shining so brightly, so between the sunshine i actually could see the sparkle of the rain, you know what i mean? and its really beautiful. like you’re wet but you can feel the sun and you feel like almost blind of the sunshine yet there’s waters dropping at you..whatever..i just want to describe sumthin really" beautiful.

and if i was some kind of a character in a book or in a chick flick, i definetely would say these lines in my head –>  " and between the rain and the sunshine, suddenly it was clear to me…that i love him or that life is beautiful than ever ". hahahahahahahaha…its always like that, isnt it? rain is a typical cliche weather in a movie or story that sort of tearjerking or sumthin.

see..? thats what i mean

besok mau ke kampus ni,,,males sih ke depok,,,tapi mesti.

1. mesti bikin surat dari jurusan buat magang di Balai Pengelolaan Kepurbakalaan bla..bla..bla itu

2. mesti (sebenernya ga mesti sih) minjem buku prasejarah ato SNI I buat bahan West Java Ancient Future itu (adalah suatu festival tentang korelasi antara kebudayaan prasejarah dengan kebudayaan masa kini, yang rencananya akan dilaksanakan pada bulan Juni di CiWalk, Braga City Walk, atau Paris Van Java, yang merupakan hasil kerjasama antara BudPar dan sebuah EO yang peduli dengan masalah kebudayaan tradisional di Jawa Barat, fiuhh..panjang ya)

3. mesti ngasih hasil translate Stone Age Trade, yg sebenernya belom kelaaaaaarrrrrrrr!!!!!! what the f***! semuanya istilah prasejarah, meneketehe..

4. mesti nransfer gaji yang salah masuk ke mantan rekening gaji gw, karena selama 5 shift gw di Aksara udah digantiin dengan baik hati ;p

5. mesti….. udah sih itu doang.

baidewei, tadi les IELTS menyenangkan. kenapa kalo les waktu suka ga kerasa, tapi kalo kuliah kayaknya waktu berenti ya? dasar, mental pemalas, hehehe.

i’ve spent these weeks like soooo average. nothin special. i’m truly happy actually. because i’m movin home again, yippy!, and i’ve got myself a laptop, a dvd player with its own speaker, awesome… an IELTS course at TBI, a translation job about Stone Age Trade, wait..should i be grateful of that? well, sure, its a money source, i’ll keep the money for my saving in the bank though.

oh yeah, a new bookshelf, beacuse recently my addiction in books have increased dramatically (cieeeh…kayak tes writing IELTS).

btw, a teacher at TBI told me bout this secondhand english bookstore at Siliwangi, it called Reading Lights, and i went there couple days ago, and, wow, really great, bunch of english books, great books, great coffee shop also, i manage to held my appeal on buying those books, so i’ve came up only with one book because my financial condition lately rather miserable of course. the title is Montmorency and the..what? geez.. i forget myself, yeah, its about an adventure troughout Europe to find a cureness i believe, well, i kind of forget that too..but then i order some Tony Parson’s books and Q magazine, ehehehe..

and my days in Bandung will be spent in translating, go to course, internship, dvd watching, internet browsing, what else?

well, those all sounds fantastic.

adios..